My silent prayers begging for help, led me to this....

One of the things I have struggled with the most is wanting God to tell me exactly what to do. Tell me where to go, whom to meet, whom to help, whom to even fall in love with. I’ve prayed, basically begging Him to use me as His vessel and guide me. Literally Jesus take the wheel, I don’t want to drive anymore! Do you know what I have come to hear him say? Every single time he whispers “what do you want?! Where do you want to go? Who do you want to love?!” It surprises me every time because God has led me to people and places plenty of times, so why now is He asking little old me what I want?! And the truth is because the God we have all come to fear is actually a very loving God who wants to serve your highest good, and your highest good is trusting YOURSELF to make the right decisions. That you have the freedom to choose where to go, what you enjoy, who to share your life with, all of that is a choice. You also have a choice to walk away, at any time, from people who do not actively appreciate and respect the energy and presence you bring into your life. God would never want you to suffer in His name; He wants you to THRIVE as an example of his unconditional love, support, and motivation.

God wants the best for you, and He will always orchestrate the meetings in your life to help guide you in the right direction. He will guide you based on your nervous system, He will always give you clues. He is asking if you can trust yourself enough to make decisions that are right for you. Can you trust God enough to know that following your heart’s desires will ALWAYS be His will for your life?! God wants you to live abundantly in His name, not just for Him, or your children, but for yourself too. He wants you to know how worth it you really are.

What a gift of love and devotion is that? Big Ole God wants little old you to be happy, healthy, and abundant. He will put people on your path that will hurt you, but with each hurt, if you choose to you learn and grow you will evolve into someone unstoppable, untouchable, yet humble. You will be someone that can see the bigger picture, maintain the vision of who you are and what you want, and go after it with liberation because you know EVERYTHING will shape you into your very best self.

The God I have come to know is a higher consciousness that connects us all. Every hurt I have caused was necessary to help another grow in some way, and every hurt I have endured was to help me grow. I am thankful for those experiences and trust that I will thrive knowing His love for me, for all of us, is endless. It’s daily mercy, grace, and patience. God is in devotion to your highest self and is so excited to see what path you choose to get there. Some routes long and windy, some short, narrow, with trepidus terrain, some routes will be flower fields, and some a calm river. Take time, pause, and decide your path. It’s only yours to take. They all lead home, back to self, back to oneness with God, back to YOU.